Recalling the night in February 2009 when she faced violence at the hands of then-boyfriend Chris Brown is likely something Rihanna will have to do privately for the rest of her life. But while speaking with Oprah Winfrey in Barbados for her upcoming Oprah’s Next Chapter interview, the “Where Have You Been” songstress teared up and attempted to describe how she tried to mentally process her feelings for Brown after that notorious incident.
“I lost my best friend,” Rihanna tells Winfrey through tears in a new preview for the episode. “Like, everything I knew switched — switched overnight. And I couldn’t control that, so I had to deal with that, and that’s not easy for me to understand or interpret. And it’s not easy to interpret on camera. Not with the world watching.”
In the clip, Rihanna goes on to say the following: “It became a circus and I felt protective. I felt like the only person they hate right now is him. It was a weird, confusing space to be in because as angry as I was, as angry and hurt and betrayed, I just felt like he made that mistake because he needed help… Nobody’s gonna say he needs help. Everybody’s gonna say he’s a monster.”
For many fans of RiRi, it’s been hard to see her shed tears over the man who so brutally beat her three years ago. Likewise, many of her followers were perplexed earlier this year when rumors began to surface that the two had not only reconciled, but gotten back together as a couple, following their musical collaborations on remixes of “Birthday Cake” and “Turn Up The Music”.
Rihanna’s full interview with Oprah airs on OWN this Sunday, at 9 p.m. EST. Perhaps we’ll all get more incite as to her frame of mind when it comes to her ex(?)-boyfriend when the episode airs in its entirety.